The most difficult loss in my life was the moment during my second pregnancy when the doctor said, “I’m not finding a heart beat” and I started to understand that I had lost my 2nd child at 18 weeks.
I gave myself a long mourning period where I did self-care and wrote a letter to my missing child. This process takes a long time. Take whatever time you need, but still notice what is making you happy. For me, I had one child and my job as her mom, was to take her to and from pre-school each day. I made that be my unique purpose. I took intentional action to be the best mom to her each day. I made sure we left with plenty of time to be early to school. I appreciated my daughter and who she was each day. She liked to pick dandelions and give them to me along the way. I carefully held on to the dandelions she handed to me until I got home after I dropped her off. When I did get home I filled a little glass with water and put the flowers in the water. My unique purpose was being the best mom I could be to my little girl. I did this day by day and started to feel good again and started to feel lesser and lesser amounts of pain. I still honored my losses. My husband and I worked well together this way. If there were things to get done and it was an off day for me, he picked up the ball of whatever the responsibility was. This was how I got through my days.
Everyone has a unique purpose. Only you know what yours is. I’m also spiritual and have faith in God. I believe God has a unique plan for each of us and He loves us. Working on exploring your unique purpose can lead us to clues about what God’s plan for us is. I try to live God’s will for me in my life each day and this is how I start.
Please comment and tell me what God’s will for you looks like each day! God Bless You!